"ologies" against me

chronology because time is running out for another 
(clock is ticking)

biology because my body wants another 
(ovaries are screaming)

psychology because i can't stop thinking about another 
(what else could make me whole again)

embryology because maybe a lab could make me another
(though that will never happen)

pathology because it could have happened to another
(2 out 5 IS bad)

hematology because maybe it was in the blood of the mother
(still waiting to find out) (may wait forever)
etiology because even if i never get another

(i need to have a why)
I can find no ology of grief, longing, heartache, numbness or generalized despair.