The nature of balloons: tomorrow

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

tomorrow

I will not be waking up with a four-month old baby tomorrow. I will be waking up with a four month-old heartache.

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This was our
baby. Juniper was born still at 39 weeks 4 days on Wednesday, February 3rd.
My arms are empty and my breasts are full. It hurts more than words could ever say.

The last time I touched him.

7 comments:

michelle hs said...: i'm sorry. *HUGS*; June 3, 2010 at 2:47 AM
Mary Beth said...: You and I must have shared a due date or so . . . I'm supposed to have a four month old now, too. It hurts like nothing I've ever felt.

I am so, so sorry.; June 3, 2010 at 4:21 AM
Sadkitty said...: He was "due" February 6th. But I expected him around the 20th because the others were 2 weeks late too. But we found no heartbeat on the 26th and he was born on the 3rd.; June 3, 2010 at 9:43 AM
biojen said...: Mine would have been four months too, five on the tenth.

I'm so sorry.

I don't think this will ever get better. Hopefully it will get easier to carry.; June 3, 2010 at 10:11 AM
car said...: Yep, the 3rd is crappy day. I should have a 2 month old boy, and instead I have 2 month old scars.; June 3, 2010 at 12:48 PM
korin said...: <3 you Emily.; June 3, 2010 at 1:05 PM
Mary Beth said...: Calla was due 2/9, and I delivered her on 1/9. Gooooood times all around, here. I agree w/ biojen--how can it get "better?" My hope is it just becomes part of me--a part that doesn't make me want to wail every second.

Hugs.; June 3, 2010 at 5:54 PM

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