Day 20 - a hobby of yours and how it changed since your loss.

So, several years back, I bought drop spindle at the Shrewsbury Renaissance Faire. I was working the Faire and needed something "period" to do with my hands. I got one lesson and a bit of wool and was hooked. Later, my dear husband got me a spinning wheel. Soon, I had much yarn and not much to do with it. So, I learned how to knit. I tried really hard to get into knitting, I have dozens of pairs of needles and a rolling case filled with knitting stuff and I did make some pretty awesome stuff here and there.

my first hand spun and hand knit socks. my dad wore them once

made the hat, not the teenager

hand washed, carded, spun and knit by me.

So, fiber arts = my hobby. Right? Well, that's where the second part of the title of today's post comes into play. See, I have tried to card, or spin or needle felt. Hell! I even started to knit a scarf that I will never finish, for Heather - who deeply deserves a pink scarf. 

The thing is. You know that deeply disturbed, deadbabymama part of my brain that I keep under lock and key most days? (honestly, this is me trying to act normal.) That crazy lady is completely convinced that knitting kills babies. Fucked up as all hell, but there it is. The two babies I knit things for while I was pregnant both died within days of each other. 

Yes I am a rational skeptic atheist. But, that DBM chic? She is completely superstitious. And if you try to tell her that it was coincidence, or maybe just that yarn (don't be ridiculous, sock yarn doesn't kill babies, knitting does) she will either cut you, or run and hide and sob. Either way, there will be no knitting done around here for quite a long while. 

And that -if anyone is still reading- is how my hobby has changed.

An ironic note; our doctor gave Nigel a bag of llama wool to take home today after his visit. I can't get to the carding combs right now though.

Also, the one thing I bought whilst antiquing this weekend was an incorrectly labeled, and therefore very cheap, antique drop spindle!